Mysteriousguy07

2014 was a tough year to go through. Rush through graduation, get into a company that hardly pay the workers, and I feel like I'm crazy for not realizing sooner that I have to leave.

Now, I'm continuing with graphic design freelancing at the same time getting a new full time job.
Walking out of Hong Wei Global, at least I get a chance to meet great 3d artist like Chee wee, Rex and Elsie. I learn a lot from them and I hope our path come across again in a better time and different company.

After leaving 3dsmax for a very long time, got myself a new com and start to relearn everything from basic. Surprisingly, I manage to quickly pick because everything seems to be so familiar and also, that marc voice at the background just ring like a zen haha. For real.

I hope this year, a lot will change. My career path, mental and physical self, and also hope by end of this year my skills improve more than before.



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Give me more luck pls

2012 been a crazy roller-coaster ride. From almost fall out of school, ippt fined, and much more drama. The greatest part is when you look back and realize how much you change. Even though my painting skills however improved, yet i found another weakness that need to attend to. Where there is greatness, there's flaws hidden within.

This year, i have to push myself even more together with the help from lecturers and friends, god will, may i survive. I stumble and fall, yet manage to stand stronger than before. Most of the time I'm lucky enough to scrap through toughest time thanks to many help. Again, stay away from high end drama in life, let it all go and just breath. Live life to the fullest.

When one heart is broken it's hard to move on (especially men), and i learn an interesting definition of forgiveness. "To forgive, we must let entire hope of a better past, before moving forward" We all have regret, but when we hold and kept it for too long, not healthy to maintain happiness. Life - is a never easy path for me.




may 2013 be another lucky year

End of semester 4, as usual there's drama going on. As a listener and shoulder to cry on, i just hope everybody gets well together again. Unexpected things occur, I'm so happy at least i get to push my final GPA up. It's not about the grades i know, just that this fear of falling into that warning list again urgh, i hate it.

This semester and last semester, really kick in with so much painting, almost lost my grip on this wacom pen. I know I have the ability to paint however, my color skills isn't there yet. Still finding my style too. At this stage, i have lots of crazy idea however whenever executing it, end result doesn't seems what i had in mind. Next semester onwards, i won't have another painting class any more.... so that's why, i plan to keep on practice my skills during free time, if i have any.

Really thank those who put my art work on ur favourite list.... really appreciate it.

It's hard to be an artist as you dedicate all your life during your prime into training, that sometimes we forget those close to us. Will i ever find my happy ending.


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Honestly, i love modeling, animation and painting however, my biggest fear is color. I scared to go too dark and too many detail when comes to painting. Last semester i can escape the realistic painting style because the direction we headed for is Samurai Jack. Simplicity is my fav style. This sem, I'm facing two classes to do with realistic painting. @_@! Forever cry myself a river. Sometimes mistake happen in painting and when you love it, consider you learn something new. It's not right but it's ok, cause i'm an artist anyway.

Sandara and Dhilip, combine them together, gets artist hollywood dream, cos they make miracles. Back in Polytechnic days, i couldn't paint a thing. Still wonder how come i get B for color. i know how to see them but when execute colors in a painting, can see things will get totally lost. Lesson learn. To paint beautiful pictures, you just need to release that neat freak attitude and just mess things up. Because every beginner artist mistake is to paint the details out more than concentrating on the colors you're applying onto the canvas.


This is just Mid term of semester 3, and I see a lot of struggles with 3dsmax. It's ok to help but few people makes me feel i should have ignore them. Lucky them, i just can't let them be. In 3d, i can create a book with thousands of pages for beginners like us, but what's the point of having it when you don't explore first hand and trying to understand how max work? Aish.... and helping them means i'm chopping my working hours for them. They think about it? erm.... Nope. Feel appreciated, not all the time. Sometimes i feel like being taken advantage of. Even though it's time consuming to help the few, for some reason i'm happy for them. Rewarding system in the brain pumping LOL. Just that when they learn how it works and you really see them trying, it feel awesome. Maybe i should be a T.A (teaching assistance) yeay.... we'll see. oh and the worst joke............ helpers didn't get paid. aha.... aha aha ha....Consequential Ethical frameworks @_@~

Time is gold, you'll understand the meaning of it once you step into Digipen. I thought i could work part-time at the same time studying, it's just impossible. My grades were burnt badly (1.78) and i know i can do better than this. That put me in the warning list, which means, by end of semester 2 if i didn't get at least gpa of 2, i'll be expel. Never in my entire life studying, i feel so much fear of failing.

Now in Semester 2 mid-term, gpa hits 2.65, more than enough to put me out of the warning list, and no longer need to fear of getting expel @_@~ \


Digipen is the right choice for me. the only problem is, financial. Sometimes life seems unfair to me, especially when i have to support myself through bank loan and such. Asking myself, will i be able to live my dream getting a job in the industry? Will my portfolio be good enough to be an animator? What is a good animator portfolio?

Points on insecurity list continues to pile up, and sometimes, it's kind of tired of feeling this way, bringing yourself down all the time. Rapping to Nicki Minaj verses, get me crazy and kills the darkness. She made me want to rap again.

After joining this school, social life cuts down by 70%, mostly spend on assignment. I dive into work to heal my broken heart. Yes, my infatuation for Azura still burning hot, she moved on and so should i. School is where we get to learn and absorb knowledge. This time round, the students is nothing like polytechnic days. We're more close and like family. Love love love it. When you're surrounded with people who love what they're doing, holding the same interest as you, it's just like as if you're in heaven. Nobody is misfit!